It wasn't until after my last long winded e-mail to my former professor [ which manically professed my awareness in wasting my own potential, lack of direction, and unclever critiques of obscure indie music] did I realize two things: 1.) I reek of early 20's angst because I still haven't figured out Who I am yet and 2.) my newly developed erratic sleep schedule has ended my writers block and apparently I have things that I want to say. Unsurprised by the lack of response from said professor I've decided to keep these personal revelations a bit more Personal and closer to home.
I am struggling with the idea of an imaginary audience with whom I should be writing to. I read once that the best way to communicate to yourself is through other people; in that case, Welcome. But on second thought the inevitably editing, planning, and unwarrented self importance that will be hightened from the Judging Audience makes me hesitant. It causes expectations and forces some kind of comittment that only leads to a bit of personal anxiety. And since you don't know my personal history lets just say I'd jump ship and end this blog without even starting it.
Which leaves us here. Some botched introduction to an audience I refuse to acknowlege [hello, I just created this blog there isn't Anyone out there to reconigze] . So now, I am forced to make the logical next step of introducing myself to Myself.
I am struggling with the idea of an imaginary audience with whom I should be writing to. I read once that the best way to communicate to yourself is through other people; in that case, Welcome. But on second thought the inevitably editing, planning, and unwarrented self importance that will be hightened from the Judging Audience makes me hesitant. It causes expectations and forces some kind of comittment that only leads to a bit of personal anxiety. And since you don't know my personal history lets just say I'd jump ship and end this blog without even starting it.
Which leaves us here. Some botched introduction to an audience I refuse to acknowlege [hello, I just created this blog there isn't Anyone out there to reconigze] . So now, I am forced to make the logical next step of introducing myself to Myself.
Welcome.
No comments:
Post a Comment